everybody has a dream of what they want to be. what kind of gf they would like to be to the man they love the most.

me, its not a princess, nor a difficult-to-handle one.

i wan and dream to be one who will be loving, sweet, caring, and being everything he needs.

i dun wan to make him sad or unhapppy.

i wan him happier than me.



but somehow, i seemed to have failed. i realise loving a person is so much more than al these.

i've failed in being sensitive to him. i nvr realise how impt or how much he value moments we do things tgt, esp for the first time for the both of us.



i made him unhappy once agn, or even angry.

how am i gg to chng that of me?

how can i learn to be more sensitive to him?

why am i always so emotional and only sensitive to myself?



i wan to be his superwoman.

i wan to bear all that loneliness, that pain myself.

i wan to see him smile.



i wish to kill the emotions i have towards myself.

i have been giving all that i could, all that i have.

but how am i gg to give him evn more, those tat i didnt have?

he said all or nothing. definitely i wan and will give all.

but havent i been doing wat i can to give my all alr?

does giving all means no mistakes at all?



i need a even greater change.

i need to make greater sacrifices.



i need time alone and peace.

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